Once upon a different time,

I listened to sad songs to purposely hurt me,

Just to process how I’m feeling

I keep on remembering,

Feeling pressure in my chest,

I don’t want to feel that again

I see what I do to myself,

Shrugging it off,

Acting like I’m something else

These playlists bring out the pain in me,

Almost breaking every time,

Trying to forget

Trying to get through it;

Sometimes trying is useless,

These feelings become ruthless